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Tuesday, July 7, 2026

Book Review: Twisted Road (Torpedo Ink Book 10) by Christine Feehan + excerpt

Twisted Road (Torpedo Ink Book 10)
by Christine Feehan
Book 10 of 10: Torpedo Ink
July 7, 2026
There’s no escaping the pull of desire in this novel in #1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan’s Torpedo Ink motorcycle club series.

When Czar shut down Lazar “Keys” Alexeev’s undercover mission, that should have been the end of the story. Instead, Keys is back in the middle of a nowhere town where a petite redhead with a pouty mouth and a ready smile drives him to distraction. He’s not sure why he’s breaking all of Torpedo Ink’s rules to spend more time around a woman who’s not even his type. He can’t get her out of his head—and now he’s facing the consequences.

Lyric Johansen doesn’t like to look anyone in the eyes, but Keys’s gaze is the one thing keeping her from a full-on panic attack. Her instinct to charge into the fray and help the biker fend off a group of vicious thugs has led to the most insane situation she’s ever been in: trapped in a coffin with a man she barely knows, minutes away from a painful death.

Survival means staying focused. But when Keys kisses Lyric to snap her out of losing it, he’s the one who ends up falling apart. He’ll need to unleash hell to get them out alive.

If only to get another taste….

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Keys and Lyric wake up in a pine box after getting knocked out by some bad guys. Keys has been undercover in Lyric's small town for a few months, and they have gotten to know one another a bit. But waking up in a box on their way to be slaughtered is not a good day.

Keys knows he can get them out alive but first he has to calm her down from having a panic attack, which isn't easy since he's just found out she's claustrophobic. He gets through to her, tells her to act unconscious and he'll do the rest. It almost works, but she's not known for taking orders or sitting idly by when she thinks she could help.

Now the bad guys are dead, another bad guy is waiting for confirmation of their death, they're both hurt and Keys has no way to get a hold of his motorcycle club members to help them. But his club, Torpedo Ink, does come for them when he can get word to them. Afterward, when the wounds are healed and Key and Lyric have time to themselves, they come to realize that they don't want to go back to being alone and want to make a life together. But Lyric doesn't know if she'll be enough for him to stay with her in the long run. It was fun watching these two learn how they fit together, even if Keys was way too bossy for my taste.

Keys makes a point of telling Lyric that he doesn't want to live without her. The first meeting with some of the other members of Torpedo Ink doesn't go as well as Keys had hoped because the guys don't think Lyric is the kind of woman Keys would end up with if he ever claimed one woman. There are some misunderstandings, and when Lyric meets Czar, their leader, he can see that both Keys and Lyric are meant to be together. All members of Torpedo Ink have special supernatural-type gifts. Steele is a doctor and can surgically repair injuries psychically. Someone else in the group is a human lie detector and Czar knows instantly if two people are meant for each other. They all have their own gifts in that way.

But the guys are all like family because they all went through something truly horrible as children. It made them killers, killers who go after human traffickers and pedophiles. Czar thinks that there's a human trafficking ring operating from the town that Lyric was living in when she met Keys. So, Czar and some of the others question her about what she saw and heard while she lived there. While she's not comfortable, she does her best to answer them. They know they have to go after the human traffickers and save whatever women and children they might have kidnapped.

While I liked the storyline quite a bit and loved seeing what some of the other characters have been up to, Keys is over-the-top bossy and pushy about what he wants to do with Lyric. She goes along with him because she wants to please him, which sat wrong with me on more than one occasion. I didn't love his character the way I loved some of the others, but it was a nice addition to the series.

Twisted Road is the 10th book in the Torpedo Ink series by Christine Feehan. I've read all the books, and they are best read to understand what the members have gone through since they were children. There's a lot of talk of murder, revenge, and sex in these books. But these are not bad people; they spend their lives saving people when they can.

I give this book 4 out of 5 sheep!



 

Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog   

Excerpt. © Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved.
One

It was rather ironic that Lazar "Keys" Alexeev had been undercover for three solid months and not one incident had occurred. There had been no leads to find. No criminal activity that he could sniff out, and he was excellent at that. After three months of absolutely nothing, Czar, the president of Torpedo Ink, his motorcycle club, had shut down the mission.

It sure as fuck should have ended there, but like an idiot he'd returned to that little nothing town in the middle of nowhere on the pretense of getting his hair cut. Then he spent time there he shouldn't have because he was breaking every rule Torpedo Ink had. Now he was facing the consequences.

There was nothing like waking up with a blinding headache in a coffin-sized box with holes drilled in it so you knew there was torture coming. Hands behind his back with idiotic cuffs he was out of in about two point three seconds. But the best-or worst-was he was lying on top of another body.

Female for damned sure. He'd know a female body if he were half-dead. His head was pounding like a mother, so it was possible he was close. He'd been close many, many times, and he was still alive. Mistake on their part. Bashing him in the head and throwing him in a box with the intention of torturing him later was just about the fuckup of all fuckups.

He took a breath and let it out slowly, almost afraid of checking out the woman lying beneath him. She was very slight, and that told him who she was. He'd known her for that first three months and had been coming back for an additional two-so five months. She wasn't his type at all. He preferred women with tits and ass and lots of experience. He didn't give a damn if they were married or not. They had taken marriage vows they were willing to break, so what difference did it make to him? Pussy was pussy.

But there was Lyric Johansen. She made no sense to him. None. Zero. Nothing about her made sense. It wasn't that she didn't have a figure-she did, mostly because she had that little tucked-in waist. The rest of her was tiny. Dinky. She wore clothes that completely covered any assets that she had. She was incredibly strong. She climbed boulders and did all kinds of backpacking. Alone. He'd seen her a few times in clothes she wore to boulder and hike, and they showed her shapely legs and toned body. Mostly, she hid from the world in baggy sweaters and far-too-big jeans.

She wore a cap or scarf over her hair. That didn't make sense either. He'd only seen her hair once. Just once. He'd gone to her shop early and had seen her through the window. She had the thickest, reddest hair he'd ever seen. Sheets and sheets of long, straight, glossy red. Not orange. Not blond red but a real, almost ruby red. He doubted anyone, even a brilliant hairstylist like she was, could get that color. It had to be natural. From the first time he saw all that red, he'd wanted to drag down her panties and look to see what she was hiding. But she was everything he didn't want or need.

Now she was lying so still, he couldn't detect the rise and fall of her chest beneath him. He knew that if she was dead, he was going to go on a killing spree to end all killing sprees. He swore under his breath and maneuvered his body in the tight space so his hips were cradled in hers and he could press his ear to her chest.

"You'd better be alive, Wildfire. If you're not, this dumbfuck town is going to be razed to the ground. Wake the hell up."

To his relief, he felt the slight lift of her chest beneath his ear. The relief was ridiculous, completely out of proportion for a man like him. He didn't care about much other than his club and fellow club members. Even then, he was more of a lone wolf than anyone realized, even men he considered brothers and his closest friends.

Women came too easily to him, and his body was always demanding he indulge. And he did. Sometimes several women in a day. He didn't care about them, and they didn't care about him. He was good at what he did, and there was mutual satisfaction-most of the time. Truth he never wanted to admit to himself nagged at him-sometimes he was bored out of his mind. Maybe lately it was more often than he was satisfied.

He didn't understand why he'd come back alone to spend time in the town. Spend time getting a haircut. Going to the country bar that made him grit his teeth at the amateurish music that was often more enthusiastic than on key. But he did know this particular woman was a pain in the ass, and he spent far too much time thinking about her.

"Wake up, baby." He moved again so his face could be directly over hers. It was hot as hell in that box. He didn't like that she'd been out so long.

He could feel the movement of the truck and knew they were on an unpaved road. It was extremely bumpy, throwing the damn wooden coffin all over the back of the truck. That hurt his head and likely would hurt Lyric's if she ever woke the hell up. He was a man known for being calm in all situations. He could explode into action when needed, but he did so thinking clearly and sanely. If Lyric didn't wake up soon and let him know she wasn't in a coma, he wasn't going to be so calm.

He bit at her chin. "Come on, baby, open your eyes."

Why the hell had she come running out of her shop to save him? She didn't show the least good sense. There were five of them, big mothers, armed and showing they were willing to kill him. Hell, they hit his head from behind with what felt like a baseball bat. Once he was on the ground, they kicked and punched him as viciously as he'd ever been attacked-and, sad to admit, it had happened often when he was younger.

The idiotic woman, not more than five feet nothing, had come to his rescue when she saw him being attacked. He remembered the determination on her face, the fire in her eyes. He hadn't considered that she had all that passion stored in her, but he should have known with her fiery hair and the hobbies she chose to pursue. She might appear quiet, but after seeing her play the part of warrior woman, he was more intrigued than ever.

And she'd saved his life. He had no doubt in his mind that the five men attacking him planned to kill him. She'd left the safety of her shop and waded in like an avenging angel, hitting the nearest man with a blow-dryer. A fucking blow-dryer. They'd overpowered her, hit her in the head, and he'd seen her go down before one of them kicked him in the head, and it was lights-out. He had no idea how long he'd been out, but he couldn't map out the road the way he normally would have. He wasn't too worried. Once they made their escape, he would find the way home.

He needed to ascertain just how injured she was. He didn't understand why they'd hit her so damned hard. She'd gone flying. They were going to pay for that. He was used to the members of Torpedo Ink having his back. They'd been doing so since they were all little kids raised in that hellhole in Russia, but other than those men and women, no one had ever stood up for him. It was unexpected. And puzzling. Worse, it fucked with his brain when he needed to be clearheaded and thinking about survival. His own survival, not some dinky woman whose fault it was he was there in the first place.

"Wake up, Lyric." He poured command into his voice. He was good at that. Very few dared to defy him, men or women. Deliberately, he feathered his lips across hers in a whispering, light rub, catching her faint breath in his mouth. For some reason, his entire body tightened. Hardened. Demanded.

What the fuck was wrong with him? Now he was so hard up he was going after a woman who was half-dead? In a coffin? A flimsy one, but still, a coffin. And Lyric, of all women. He tried to remember when he'd been with a woman last. It couldn't have been more than a few hours earlier, yet he was as hard as a rock at the first touch of her full, pouty mouth.

Pouty. He despised that kind of woman. Manipulative. Emotional. Whiny. Okay, he hadn't heard Lyric ever be any of those things, but those full, pouty lips gave her away. He had fantasized far too often about those lips wrapped around his cock. Which was insane. He was far too experienced to think she'd know what she was doing. He'd have to give her instructions. Tedious. But if he was being truthful with himself, he'd dreamt of her until he'd left Caspar, his hometown, and taken the ride to her nowhere burg, all the while telling himself she wasn't the kind of woman he would ever go for.

For one thing, it was obvious she was innocent. He wasn't about to waste his time on some untutored pussy that he'd have to expend energy trying to teach. Worse, she'd fall apart after and expect him to stick around. Innocents were off the table. He didn't have much of a code when it came to sex, but that was sacred. He'd never once broken that rule, nor was he ever tempted to-unless it was now. With her. And he had no idea why. She was worse than a pain in the ass.

Damn it. Why wasn't she waking up? The asshole who'd hit her from behind had used some weapon Keys hadn't seen from his position on the ground, but probably a baseball bat, just like the one used on him. He'd hit her hard. Keys smelled blood. "Come on, woman, wake the hell up."

Keys was born in hell and lived there for years, but he had been given gifts that he'd taken the time to develop. He could play any instrument and had an ear for perfectly pitched music. Truth be told, that was what landed him here. Lyric laughed often with her customers and with him. Her laughter was sweet most of the time, but when she laughed at-or with-him, she had the absolutely purest notes he'd ever heard. He found himself wanting that laughter just for himself-and she gave it to him.

He had a major affinity for wood. Any wood. He touched it and read its history. He worked with wood, building beautiful things. Just touching wood could bring peace to him, just as his musical instruments did. This coffin . . . not so peaceful.

He and Lyric weren't the only ones who had been inside that box, but the others weren't alive anymore. They'd been tortured and then died in the makeshift coffin. The wood itself was on the flimsy side. Whoever had constructed the box had done so with haste and no pride in their work. That was good for him.

"All right, baby, I'm telling you to wake the hell up." Because he wasn't a man who felt fear. He'd lived through too much. He was a trained assassin and had been since he was a child. He had nothing to live for, therefore he didn't fear death. But he did fear for her. The pain-in-his-ass woman who he couldn't stay away from when there was absolutely no sane reason to keep her in his life.

"Your fault we're in this predicament, darlin', so open your eyes." He dipped his head and locked his teeth on her full lower lip. That damned lip he'd spent far too much time fantasizing about. He bit down and tugged gently before feathering his lips over hers again, just to catch her breath in his mouth.

She groaned. Tried to turn her head, but he wanted to see her eyes. Assess the damage.

"Look at me, Wildfire. Open your eyes and look at me."

"Not yet. I can't feel my arms. At all. I'm afraid to look."

"Open your eyes. You were hit in the head, and you've been out for a while. I need to know how hurt you are."

"Suffice it to say my head exploded and my brains have leaked out." She murmured the words, a whisper of sound that sent a ripple of heat through him. That voice. When she was unguarded, like now, her tone played over his every nerve ending.

"Good to know you'll rely on my judgment since you're admitting you have no brain at the moment."

Her lips did that now-familiar moue he found himself looking for when he was with her. That dimple that made him want to trace it with his tongue. Lately, that had been often-too often. He'd broken every rule his club had to visit her, and he still didn't have a clue why.

"Why are you on top of me? I can barely breathe. Get off. I can't breathe, and I can't feel my arms. They're trapped under me. With your weight on top of me, I can't move them." Her eyes remained tightly closed, as if she knew better than to examine the world around her.

"You can breathe, and you're unable to move your arms because they've gone to sleep."

The coffin slid to the left and then pitched to the right, hitting the side of the truck's bed, shaking them both up. The road was even rougher than before. And steep. He felt her breath catch in her throat.

"That hurt you?" He detested that he couldn't examine the wound on the back of her head.

"My head really does feel like it exploded. And I'm hot. I hate that my arms are trapped, and you have to get off of me." She whispered it to him like she was embarrassed. "I know this sounds silly, but I have horrible claustrophobia. I don't like the feeling that I can't move."

That wasn't great news. "I'll get us out of here."

"Where are we?"

"At the moment we're prisoners, and we're being hauled up a mountain, presumably into the forest, where I believe our captors think they're going to have fun torturing us."

She squeezed her eyes shut tighter. "I can't say as I'm looking forward to that."


About the Author:
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I write every day and have done so since I was old enough to pick up a pen. (I spent a lot of time getting in trouble at school for writing instead of doing the things I was supposed to do.) Once I create my characters, I try very hard to have them react to situations as they really would. Sometimes I have preconceived ideas of what I would like them to do, but they don’t mind me, because it would be out of character for them. They take on a life of their own. Sometimes when I throw difficult situations at them in the hopes I’ll get a certain reaction and they don’t do what I want, I complain bitterly to my husband and he laughs at me. Still, it is important to me to have them be real, not perfect people, so they make mistakes we lesser mortals might make.

Tuesday, January 24, 2023

Book Review: Recovery Road (Torpedo Ink) by Christine Feehan

Recovery Road (Torpedo Ink)
by Christine Feehan
January 24, 2023
A broken man finds a woman worth living for in the new novel in #1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan’s Torpedo Ink motorcycle club series.

Kir “Master” Vasiliev doesn’t care whether he lives or dies. He’s a burnt-out shell with no one and nothing but his club. Whatever Torpedo Ink needs, Master will put himself in harm’s way time after time. If he doesn’t make it back, he’s certain everyone will move on just fine.
 
Investment banker Ambrielle Moore knows her own mind, and she’s not willing to settle for anyone. So when a second-rate gangster and his thugs try to coerce her into marriage—and giving up all of her family’s money—she’s having none of it. Until they turn to cold-blooded murder. 
 
Grieving and enraged, Ambrie is ready to go scorched earth on her captors when Master shows up anticipating a damsel in distress. But Ambrie is nothing like he expected, and everything he never knew he desired...

Kir "Master" is a Torpedo Ink member and feels burnt out after his last prison assignment. He doesn't want to go undercover in prison again, but he doesn't think the other team members will listen to him, so he feels really done.

Ambrielle "Ambrie" was held hostage and her parents were killed right in front of her. Now she's being forced to marry a mobster against her will for her money. She's sure that once her soon-to-be husband marries her and gets his hands on her money, he'll kill her.

When Master and the rest of Torpedo Ink discover what's going on with her, they decide to step in and save her. But in order to keep her from being kidnapped and forced to marry the mobster again, they tell her that she should marry Master so she's already married to someone, and they'll be able to keep her safe.

Master lets her know that she doesn't have to marry him, but if she does, they'll be no divorce because he and his crew marry for life. He thinks she's too good for him and wants one of the other guys to marry her, but she agrees to marry him because she feels safe around him, and when she gets to know him, she can see that he's not a bad guy. She sees that the other guys in Torpedo Ink are very nice to her, and so are their wives, even though the guys are a bit rough around the edges. She starts to see that things aren't always as they appear to be and that she can trust them all. So when they go after the people who killed her parents, there's a lot more going on there than they first suspected. And then their leader and his family are targeted by someone and they have no idea who it is or why they are being targeted. They have to figure that out and go after the people who killed Ambrielle's parents.

I love how they all work together really well; even the wives get in on the action. The pranks that are going on between Savage and the sheriff are hilarious and we get to see a completely different side of Savage. It was nice that this book was mostly Master and Ambrielle getting to know one another and there was no BDSM in this book unlike in some of the previous books. This was just a sweet romance between Master and Ambrielle although there is a lot of talk about how well-endowed Master is.

All of the Torpedo Ink members have horrible pasts and childhoods. We get to hear what happened to some of them but there weren't as many graphic details as in the previous books. For this reason and to get to know these characters better, I think it's a good idea to read this series in order.

I give this book 5 out of 5 sheep.





Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog


About the Author:
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I write every day and have done so since I was old enough to pick up a pen. (I spent a lot of time getting in trouble at school for writing instead of doing the things I was supposed to do.) Once I create my characters, I try very hard to have them react to situations as they really would. Sometimes I have preconceived ideas of what I would like them to do, but they don't mind me, because it would be out of character for them. They take on a life of their own. Sometimes when I throw difficult situations at them in the hopes I'll get a certain reaction and they don't do what I want, I complain bitterly to my husband and he laughs at me. Still, it is important to me to have them be real, not perfect people, so they make mistakes we lesser mortals might make.

Tuesday, January 25, 2022

Book Reviews: Savage Road (Torpedo Ink Book 7) by Christine Feehan

Savage Road (Torpedo Ink Book 7)
by Christine Feehan
January 25, 2022
525 pages
Berkley
#1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan explores uncharted territory in the new Torpedo Ink Motorcycle Club novel.

When Savin “Savage” Pajari and Seychelle Dubois first met, their connection was instant, their attraction undeniable. Their relationship has been full throttle since day one. Even though months have passed, the passion and love between them has only increased.

Savage completely owns what he is: a sadist in the bedroom who can only get off on his partner’s pain. He believes he’s not a good man, but he loves Seychelle with a fierceness that shocks him. He wants all of her, but only if she gives herself freely with eyes wide open.

Seychelle never imagined the lure of mixing pain with pleasure, or how much she’d crave Savage’s darkness. She’s been shaken to her core, but Seychelle is committed to Savage and their life together—even though he’s keeping a piece of himself back. And to truly make their relationship work, he has to give her everything that he is, just as she is doing for him.

Savage knows that what he really needs could break his woman if she isn’t ready. She agreed to come into his world, and he’s not about to give her up. He has to find a way to let her see the monster inside without pushing her away. But the real Savage might be more than Seychelle can bear...and he knows he wouldn’t survive losing her.


This is the second book about Savage because this man is so complex, and his story is so compelling that one book, Annihilation Road, was not enough. This book takes place a few months after the last book, so Seychelle and Savage have gotten to know each other better, but she still hasn't seen Savage at his worst yet. Savage is a sadist but he made sure that she knew that before bringing her into his life. The fact is, Seychelle likes the pain he brings her with the whips but he hasn't let himself really show her what he considers the monster inside him when he's taken too much of his friend's pain, rage, and anger inside himself.

Savage has a psychic gift that helped him and his family stay alive when they were held captive and abused as children. He could take some of their pain, anger, and rage into himself but if he takes too much, his way of releasing it is to release the monster inside himself and use the whips he's so good at using. It's either that or go to a fight club and beat the crap out of his opponent, but his family had had to pull him off of the other guy too many times before he killed someone. So it's no wonder he's afraid to let Seychelle see the monster inside him. He's not sure she'll ever be ready to be with him when he's in that kind of mindset, even though she likes some pain mixed with their more intimate times.

Savage is a control freak and wants to control Seychelle all the time, but she's also no pushover. Hence, it was fun to watch as they try to navigate their new relationship and Savage has to try and figure out how to give Seychelle the freedom she needs while still holding onto the control he needs.

Brandon from the last book is still trying to influence Seycheele because he has a psychic gift that lets him influence people with his voice but because Seycheele has the same gift, he can't influence her and he's taken that as a challenge. He is mad because Seychelle could break the psychic hold he had on a couple of women, and now he wants revenge on her for interfering.

When a hit is put out on Savage and a body is found murdered, Savage is the first person the police suspect but they have no case because he has an alibi. But that just makes the person setting him up madder and out for revenge even more. As Seychelle uses her gift on several people to see who is and who isn't influenced by Brandon's gift, it becomes apparent that Brandon isn't the only other one with a psychic gift. Someone else has been putting thoughts into people's minds for one reason or another, and because of this, more than just Seychelle and Savage are in danger.

It was fun to watch them figure out who is behind the problems and how it all fits together. I like Savage and Seychelle even though I knew going into these books that Savage was a sadist and I might be reading scenes in this book like the last one that would make me uncomfortable, and let me tell you, this book made me uncomfortable. Much more so than the previous book. Savage lets loose his monster a lot more in this book, and the only reason I was ok with it was that Seychelle is all in, it's completely consensual between them and Savage really does love her.

I wasn't sure I would like this series when I first started reading it, but this is the 7th book, and I'm looking forward to seeing who finds their mate next.

I give this book 4 out of 5 sheep.





Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog

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One
Seychelle Dubois sat on the bathroom floor staring at the toilet for the second morning in a row. She felt like an idiot. "No, Savage, I'm not pregnant. And I'm not a secret drinker either."

"What the hell is wrong? Should I call Steele? I want you to go see him."

She pushed herself up, glaring at him. "I do not need to see a doctor. Do you remember the talk we had on privacy?" Stumbling over to the sink, Seychelle washed her face with cold water, rinsed out her mouth and then started the process of brushing her teeth.

Savin "Savage" Pajari continued to watch her in the mirror. He leaned one hip against the doorjamb, arms crossed over his chest. His eyes were arctic blue, so cold they made her shiver. It didn't help that he wore a thin pair of drawstring pants, indicating he was going out to practice with his whip. She had been avoiding watching him the last couple of days because for some unexplained reason, just the sight and sound of it turned her on like nothing else in the world possibly could. That was the last thing she needed to know right now on top of everything else-that she was truly messed up in the head, or body, however one wanted to look at it.

"Seychelle, we did have a talk about privacy, and I told you how I felt about it when it came to my woman. Now fuckin' tell me what's going on."

She took her time finishing with her teeth, rinsed her mouth multiple times and then turned to face him, leaning her butt against the sink, arms crossed to match his. "I'm having hideous nightmares. Really vivid nightmares. They make me sick." She did her best not to make it an accusation, but she knew it came out like one. What was she accusing him of? He wasn't in her nightmares.

Savage studied her face for a long time without speaking, those blue eyes burning like ice over her. He was gorgeous. That was half her problem. She could stare at him endlessly-forever. He had a body on him, all man, more muscles than was good for him, tattoos over scars and burns. He had the words Whip Master burned into his skin on his chest and Master of Pain burned into his back. The tats didn't cover either burns, although she knew Ink, a brother in his club, had done his best with the beautiful artwork on him.

"You gonna stop there and make me ask or you gonna tell me what these nightmares are about, angel? If they're making you sick, they're fucked the hell up."

There was a warning in his voice, but no expression on his face, just those blue, blue eyes, cold as a glacier, telling her he wasn't going to let it go.

They had agreed to have truth between them, but that really meant she told him the truth and he withheld things he didn't want to talk about. They'd been together for months, and she loved him far too much. It wasn't a good thing by any means.

"Last chance, Seychelle, start talking."

"It was a nightmare, Savage. People have them."

"Two fuckin' nights in a row. The same nightmare. Bad enough that you puke in the toilet and you don't want to tell me about it."

That was a straight-up accusation. Worse, he was right. She didn't want to tell him. That stance. Arms across his chest. Those eyes that wouldn't let her look away no matter how much she wanted to. He'd given her space the day before because she'd asked him to. She'd been upset. Joseph Arnold, a stalker, had been sitting in her cottage waiting for her with a gun, and Savage thought she was upset about that. She had been, of course, but that wasn't the only reason. There was a multitude of reasons she was questioning her sanity. Mostly, it had to do with herself, the things she was discovering she needed in her own sexual relationship, and that truly frightened her. She needed to come to terms with it.

There were just so many things coming at her so fast. She wasn't a person who took things in fast. She just wanted everything to slow down so she could take a breath and assimilate everything at a much different pace than they were going.

"It isn't me that is going to have the sore ass. I'm not asking again."

She detested the little flare of dark excitement that sent heat to her sex. It didn't matter how annoying she found it that he just stood there so casually. He was unmoving, those eyes of his holding her in place, probably seeing that flicker of reaction she couldn't control, knowing blood pounded in her clit and her sex fluttered just at the thought of what he intended in spite of her absolute abhorrence of his intentions.

"I shouldn't be punished because I choose not to talk to you about a nightmare I have, Savage. If I ask you about nightmares, you wouldn't tell me if you didn't want to."

"I have them all the time, angel, or I used to until you came into my life. You want to know about them, you ask me. I'll lay that shit out for you."

Of course he'd say that now. Her fingers formed two tight fists in frustrations. Why couldn't she just lie to him? Make something up? People did that all the time. She wasn't a liar. She'd never been, but maybe this one time it would be okay.

She shrugged. Tried to look away. She couldn't lie looking at him, for heaven's sake.

"Damn good thing you're just wearing that little robe, angel, and nothing else. Take it off, hang it on the hook inside the bathroom right by the shower and come on out here. I'll be waiting for you, and the longer you make me wait, the more punishment I'm going to add on."

He turned and walked away. Out of sight. He didn't go sit on the end of their bed, where she might see him. He walked out of sight, which meant he might have gone over to the chair close to the spanking bench. She nearly groaned aloud. She could close and lock the bathroom door-except there were no locks on the bathroom door. Why? Because her man had a thing about privacy.

She didn't have to go out there. She didn't have to do what he said. She was a grown woman. She made her own choices. That was the bottom line, and Savage always made that very, very clear. Everything they did together was ultimately her choice. She walked over to the mirror and stared at herself. Her eyes were dilated. Her face flushed. Already she was breathing too fast.

Why was she like this? Why did she respond sexually to something painful? Her body craved whatever Savage did to her, even when her brain refused to want it. She knew he would never stop until she told him what he wanted to know. She didn't want to tell him because what if she was right? What if the man in her nightmares was really Savage, and it was one more thing she was going to have to sort out? She was already at a breaking point.

Seychelle rinsed her face again with cold water, hoping to clear her mind. Savage was her choice. She had to sort through her problems fast. She was committed to him-to their life together. She wasn't so committed to his club. To that life. She didn't really understand it, and that was part of who he was. She needed that piece of him. He pulled her into it, then pushed her back out, and she resented it.

She took a deep breath, her lashes lifting so she found herself staring at herself in the mirror, realizing she'd just had a revelation. She didn't resent the fact that Savage had a psychic gift that allowed him to take on the anger, the very real rage his brothers and sisters of Torpedo Ink felt that made him the way he was. She was actually proud of him for that. She resented that all of them shared deep secrets and he shut her out. At the same time, he expected her to use her gifts to aid them and him when the club needed those gifts. Where was the fairness in that?

Ordinarily, Seychelle would gladly help anyone in need. Especially Savage. Any one of Savage's friends. But not like this, not when she was shut out and she was supposed to be his partner. He demanded 100 percent from her. He told her he was giving her 100 percent of him, but he wasn't.

She pushed at the hair tumbling around her face. When she did, she noticed the ring on her left hand. How could she not? It was gorgeous. A rare fancy teal-blue diamond, surrounded by diamonds that appeared to be petals hugging her finger. The entire thing glittered every time she moved. It should have been ostentatious, but it wasn't. It was simply beautiful. Savage had a way of knowing exactly what she would love.

He was trained to read body language. Every facial expression. Every single subtle hint, from elevated breathing to the parting of her lips. He knew her. And she was an open book anyway, even when she tried not to be. He had been trained from childhood in the arts of sex: giving, receiving, training one to do what he commanded, and he was very, very good at what he did. He had too many weapons to use against her, and she had fallen too fast to get her armor in place.

It wasn't that she didn't want to be where she was-she did. She had come on board with her eyes open-sort of. Living in reality was always a far cry from being dreamily in love. "Let that be a lesson to you, Seychelle," she whispered.

She couldn't blame all of it on Savage or all the frightening things he brought to their relationship. She hadn't realized the extent of the lure of mixing pain and pleasure. She'd been so attracted to him, to that darkness in him. The first time he'd spun her around in an alley, lifted the hem of her dress and smacked her bottom, she'd gotten so damp, reacting to him when no one had ever made her body come alive before. That had been a revelation-a bit confusing, actually.

She went home and immediately delved deeper into spankings and even floggers, but she didn't really understand it. She had no idea why her body would respond to such a thing when no matter what she'd tried, she'd thought she was absolutely frigid. The deeper into his world Savage took her-and granted, it wasn't very far, but she saw where they were going-the more alarmed she got. She was intrigued. Terrified, but intrigued. That wasn't a good thing in her opinion.

In her mind, when she'd gotten together with Savage, she believed she would give herself to him and there would be that moment when she would have to "suffer" for him. He suffered for those he loved, and she would do it for him. She was very confused with the way she felt about pain and the effects on her body. She didn't want to crave pain. Did she? Or did she crave Savage? She didn't even know anymore what was right or wrong. She only knew that she loved him, and she had to find a way to come to terms with all the rest of it.

Savage stood looking at the array of tools he had lined up in his cabinet over the wooden drawers built along the wall next to the tall wooden cabinet where the jewelry he had for Seychelle was kept. She hadnÕt even seen the majority of it. He had orders in to have so much more made for her. Now that he had her in his life, he was more than comfortable with his needs. He just had to get her to a place where she was accepting of their lifestyle.

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He was a sadist in the bedroom, and he owned what he was. He had exhausted all the avenues open to him to change and knew there was no way for him to be anything but what he was. He needed to see his woman in pain in order to be aroused. He got off on that shit. Putting his handprints or his marks on her gorgeous ass aroused him. But the thought of using his floggers or whips, that was the ultimate for him-that would put steel in his cock like nothing else could. Her tears were his. Her ultimate pleasure was his, and he could give her pleasure like no one else ever could.

She had gone into their relationship fully aware. He had been careful to tell her what he was so there would be no surprises on that score. He'd laid it out as plainly as possible, but talking about it wasn't the same as experiencing it. He had been bringing her into his lifestyle faster than he wanted to. He knew that was frightening for her. She responded so beautifully though.

Her body was aroused with clamps. She loved nipple play. He loved it. They hadn't gotten to the more exciting stuff for him, but they were getting there fast. She would both love that and hate it. She was coming to enjoy her spankings a little too much. She wasn't altogether certain she liked the crop that much, but he doubted if she would care for very many of the straps, slappers and tawes he was looking at in his cupboard at the moment.

These were specialized tools, and he chose three tawes, one that would warm her little backside up properly. He would ask her questions and hope she would answer him without lying. She'd never lied to him, but she'd been considering it. The second tawes, also crafted in the rough-hewn center-split leather like the first, was slightly larger and delivered a more punishing strike. She would definitely feel it. The split leather wouldn't feel anywhere near the same as the thicker crop he'd used on her. He'd ask again, and if she still didn't answer him, there was the larger tawes, which she definitely wouldn't enjoy. It was for a severe punishment. A lie. A holdout when there was no reason. He hoped-and doubted-it wouldn't come to that.

Savage would lay it out for her like he always did. She would choose her own consequences. During a punishment she knew there was no calling out "red" for stop. Any other time during sex, she had that right. This was a different circumstance and one she'd agreed to when they first laid down the rules to their relationship.

--This text refers to the mass_market edition.

About the Author:
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Monday, December 27, 2021

Book Review: Annihilation Road (Torpedo Ink Book 6) by Christine Feehan

December 28, 2021
480 pages
All paths lead to destruction in the new Torpedo Ink novel from #1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan.

Savin “Savage” Pajari is convinced he’s not worth a damn thing. He’s not like his brothers. He’s a sadistic monster, a killer—a man no woman could truly love. So it completely throws him when a stranger risks her life for his, pushing him out of the way and taking the hit that would have sent him six feet under. If he had any kind of sense, he’d leave her alone, but Savage can’t get the woman with a smart mouth and no sense of self-preservation out of his head. With one kiss, he’s lost.

Seychelle Dubois has spent her entire life not feeling much of anything, until Savage comes along and sets her whole body on fire. Kissing him was a mistake. Letting him get close would be a catastrophe. He’s the most beautiful—and damaged—man she’s ever met. He has a way of getting under her skin, and what he’s offering is too tempting to resist.

Seychelle knows so little about Savage or the dangerous world of Torpedo Ink, but his darkness draws her like a moth to a flame. Loving him could mean losing herself completely to his needs—needs she doesn’t understand but is eager to learn. But what Savage teaches her could destroy her.

Savage runs with a biker gang known as Torpedo Ink. They are, in fact, more like family since they all went through something very horrible as children. They have each other's backs and celebrate when a member finds their one person. Savage is a killer and a sadist, but he's that way because the people who kidnapped him and killed his family made him that way. He never thought he'd find a woman who would love him because he's very broken.

Seychelle has a gift that lets her heal people somewhat or at least help them live longer if they are very sick. She can also feel what they are feeling and help if they are anxious, mad, or other emotions. She's a singer but there's a guy who thinks he controls where and when she can sing and she's not happy about it. So when some of the guys of Torpedo Ink ask her to sing at their club, she says she'll think about it.

Seychelle runs into Savage when she spots him trying to save a child from getting hit by a vehicle, but he's not gonna make it out of the way in time until she pushes him out of the way and gets hurt herself. Savage can't believe someone risked their life for him so he goes to the hospital to see her and is instantly attracted to her, which doesn't ever happen to him. He tries to leave her alone because he knows he's broken, and any woman he ends up with will have to deal with his demons.

They spend time together, and Savage is pretty upfront with her about what he needs, but she knows because she catches glimpses of what he does when the rage in him gets to be too much, and he needs a release. Each member of Torpedo Ink was trained from a young age to be killers, and their paranormal gifts were honed, and they were trained to use them, which helped them survive the hell they were put through. Now they seek out pedophiles so they can save the child victims and kill the offenders. That's what they've been doing in some of the other books. Unfortunately, all of the members are a little messed up mentally because of how they were raised and the abuse, torture, and hell they went through as children.

Seychelle has made enemies of a couple of different guys because she wasn't easily persuaded and helped a woman in trouble, and now a couple of guys have her in their sights. So while Savage and Seychelle are getting to know each other better, the club members are also keeping her safe.

This is the 6th book in the Torpedo Ink series, and I have been looking forward to this book the most because Savage seems the most broken. He's a sadist. His nickname is whip master for a reason. There will actually be two books just about Savage because one book couldn't do him justice. I'm looking forward to that one as well, even though I feel it will be more in-depth regarding Seychelle and Savage's relationship and how he's "training" her to like and accept the pain that he needs.

This book and this series isn't for everyone. The guys can be crass, rude, and rough because they use a lot of bad language and can be quite graphic. Because of all these things, I wasn't sure that this series would be for me. But I just keep coming back to read each book because I've gotten to know these characters and what they've been through and how hard they've tried to put the torturous childhood they had to some use, and when they find that one person they were meant to be with, it's nice to see them get a little happiness in their lives for once.

This isn't an easy read, but Savage is so much more than a sadist. He's also a guy who cares a lot about his club members. We get to see what his gift is and how he's been using it without them even knowing it. After that bombshell explodes, we see why Savage is so full of rage and in need of an outlet to release it. I would definitely read this series in order; otherwise, you might be a little lost.

I give this book 5 out of 5 sheep!






Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog


About the Author:
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I write every day and have done so since I was old enough to pick up a pen. (I spent a lot of time getting in trouble at school for writing instead of doing the things I was supposed to do.) Once I create my characters, I try very hard to have them react to situations as they really would. Sometimes I have preconceived ideas of what I would like them to do, but they don't mind me, because it would be out of character for them. They take on a life of their own. Sometimes when I throw difficult situations at them in the hopes I'll get a certain reaction and they don't do what I want, I complain bitterly to my husband and he laughs at me. Still, it is important to me to have them be real, not perfect people, so they make mistakes we lesser mortals might make.

Wednesday, February 10, 2021

Book Review: Reckless Road (Torpedo Ink Book 5) by Christine Feehan

Reckless Road (Torpedo Ink Book 5)
by Christine Feehan
February 9, 2021
Berkley
480 pages
Refuel your passion with a new installment of the Torpedo Ink series by #1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan.

While Gedeon “Player” Lazaroff is one of Torpedo Ink motorcycle club’s roughest members, he’s also one of the calmest. Little rattles Player, except for the times his gift gets the better of him. When that happens, he has to just lie down in the dark and hope for the best. But on a night when he’s on the verge of losing it, he meets a woman who manages to soothe his fractured mind.

Zyah is a striking, ethereal beauty who seduces him with every word and move. Their night together is one of pure, exquisite bliss. But when Player gets confused and thinks their intimate encounter was nothing more than a dream, his careless dismissal leaves her humiliated and angry.

Now, Player will have to devote his every breath to convincing Zyah to give him a second chance. Because she might be the only one who can save him from himself.…

Getting back from a mission that went all kinds of wrong, Player has a migraine and his other psychic gifts are starting to get away from him. Even his buddies don't really know how bad things can get if he doesn't get back to his room and sleep for a while. But Zyah is in his room when he gets there and just being around her makes him feel better.


Zyah is just at the party to be a designated driver so she gets permission to use one of the vacant bedrooms to practice her belly dancing. So when Player walks in and asks her to stay and talk with him, she does. They end up doing a lot more than talking and afterward when he gives her a handful of cash and tells her to leave, she's hurt and humiliated.

Zyah is not a hooker like Player thought she was so she's more than a little disgusted with him and herself and hopes to never see him. But he knows he made a huge mistake with her, he had been awake for three days and didn't realize what he was doing. So the next day he has his friends helping track her down so he can make things right and hopes that Zyah will give him another chance. He and his friends find out that Zyah had come to her grandmother's home after men broke in and threatened her grandmother and beat her up so now Zyah was looking for a new job closer to her grandmother so she could be there to take care of her.

There were several break-ins and assaults in that town but Zyah and her grandmother didn't understand why the burglars came back to her grandmother's house more than once. They must be getting faulty information about what she could have in her home from someone. Because Player wants to keep Zyah safe, he's there when another break-in happens at Zyah's home and he's able to stop it but not before he gets really hurt. Zyah and another member of his club come and are able to help heal him with their psychic gifts but it takes weeks for him to get better and in that time something strange starts to happen to him because he builds bombs in his head that can become real when he doesn't have tight control over his psychic gifts.

While Zyah and Player are slowly getting closer and getting to know one another a lot better, they have to deal with something strange happening and someone being able to spy on them in a weird way. Then they find out that someone in the community is helping the burglars and I had that wrong. I didn't realize who it was until it was revealed. All the members of Torpedo Ink had horrible childhoods but that brought them a lot closer now. So they all gather around to help Player, Zyah, and her grandmother. I really liked this book and will definitely be reading more books as they come out. I would recommend reading this series in order since there are so many characters and storylines going on.


I give this book 4 out of 5 sheep.





Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog


About the Author:
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I write every day and have done so since I was old enough to pick up a pen. (I spent a lot of time getting in trouble at school for writing instead of doing the things I was supposed to do.) Once I create my characters, I try very hard to have them react to situations as they really would. Sometimes I have preconceived ideas of what I would like them to do, but they don't mind me, because it would be out of character for them. They take on a life of their own. Sometimes when I throw difficult situations at them in the hopes I'll get a certain reaction and they don't do what I want, I complain bitterly to my husband and he laughs at me. Still, it is important to me to have them be real, not perfect people, so they make mistakes we lesser mortals might make.




Tuesday, July 7, 2020

Book Review: Desolation Road (Torpedo Ink Book 4) by Christine Feehan + excerpt

Desolation Road (Torpedo Ink Book 4)
by Christine Feehan
July 7, 2020
Berkley
Take the ride of your life with the Torpedo Ink motorcycle club in this thrilling romance novel from #1 New York Times bestselling author Christine Feehan.

Torpedo Ink is Aleksei “Absinthe” Solokov’s whole life. They’re his brothers, his family—his everything. But that doesn't stop him from wanting something that only belongs to him. That’s why the tough biker has spent the last six weeks at the library, reading every book he can get his hands on and watching the prim and proper librarian who makes his blood rush.

For the past six weeks, Scarlet Foley has been fantasizing about the handsome, tattooed man whose eyes follow her every move. She senses he's dangerous. She wants him to get close enough to touch. She wishes she could let him know the real woman, not the one she pretends to be. But Scarlet has a plan to carry out, and she can’t afford any distractions.

Absinthe is well aware that Scarlet is hiding something. She’s a puzzle he intends to solve, piece by intoxicating piece….


Aleksei (Absinthe) loved books, it gave him a way to escape for a little while and feel normal. But coming to the library for the past six weeks had more to do with the librarian than the books. He had been watching her and hadn't told anyone about her yet. He could command with his voice if he wanted to and he wanted to tell everyone to be quiet and stop thinking for a while so he wasn't always bombarded with emotions, but he didn't.

Scarlet Foley, the librarian was thrilled when Aleksei kept coming back to the library. She thought he was the most gorgeous man she's ever laid eyes on. She hadn't been enamored with muscles and tattoos until she met him and now she had a hard time not staring at him. But she has a huge secret so she's very careful about who she spends her time with.

Aleksei could read thoughts from those he touched but he also had other gifts. He could compel the truth and make suggestions others would follow. He's a member of Torpedo Ink, a biker gang that was trained from a young age and now seeks out pedophiles so they can save the child victims and kill the offenders. Unfortunately, all of the members are a little messed up mentally because of how they were raised and the abuse, torture, and hell they went through as children.

When Aleksei asks her out on a date, she was wary at first but she accepts and finds out that they have a lot in common including the fact that they are both speed readers. I loved that since I've been told that I read pretty fast and could relate to that fact really well. I found them to be fun, genuine, and even a little flirty. But when his club does a deep background check on her, he finds out that she's more like him than he could have ever imagined. All he knows is that Scarlet might be in danger from a very powerful man who wants vengeance and even though she can take care of herself, he wants to be there to make sure she's safe...if she'll let him.

Their relationship gets serious really fast when they're thrown into a dangerous situation and Absinthe's club gets involved in helping to keep her safe not only from the man who wants revenge against her but a rival motorcycle club who has been hired to kidnap her and bring her to the person who put a hit out on her.

I have so many mixed feelings for some of these characters. Absinthe's brothers and sisters of his club have very strong personalities and even though they care deeply about each other and the person that will become their husband/wife, they are still really messed up people. They all seem to have peculiar or even strange and sometimes dangerous sexual 'needs' that they expect their partners to be ok with. So while I liked this book much better than the first, there are still things about these people that I don't like. I'm almost scared to guess what will happen when Savage gets his book because that character is probably the most messed up and he's more than a little scary. I pity the woman that catches his eye but I'm also intrigued. Like I said, so many mixed feelings.

I liked this book a lot more than the first book. The guys of Torpedo Ink were rude, crude, and very much cavemen in the first book. But Absinthe is a more likable character and the other guys have settled down a little bit. They might still be unpolished gems but they seem to be better people since finding their partners. The women's calming personalities seem to be rubbing off on these guys. But they all genuinely care about each other which is admirable and something that I really like.

I give this book 4 sheep.





Mary Kirkland
Dark Thoughts Blog

Excerpt:
Absinthe opened the door to the restaurant for her, scanning the room quickly for potential trouble before allowing her to do the same thing while he turned back toward the street and gave that another quick once-over. Certain no one was paying attention to either of them, he closed the door and followed his librarian’s amazing ass. She was in a black skirt with small white polka dots scattered over it. The material clung to her curves. He appreciated that particular skirt very much.

Absinthe held the back of her chair for her, ignoring the waiter who looked as if he might conk him on the head and abscond with the girl. She looked regal as she took the seat, smiling up at Absinthe, nearly taking his breath away. Whatever it was that she had affected him like some kind of aphrodisiac. Her small teeth. That mouth with her full, pouty lips that were made for a man’s dirtiest fantasies. He hadn’t had them until she came along. Not like this. Mostly he’d had nightmares. The erotic, very graphic dreams were a welcome change.

“Are you a wine drinker?” Absinthe didn’t know the first thing about wine. He could make her any kind of drink she wanted, or talk beer, but wine eluded him. If she loved wine, he was going to be taking a crash course. It wouldn’t take him long to catch up.

She shook her head. “I actually don’t drink very much. Once in a while, if it’s really hot out, I’ll have an ice-cold beer. But other than that, it’s a very occasional drink and usually I go for something girly like a cosmopolitan.”

“I don’t drink wine,” Absinthe admitted. “Like you I’m not a big drinker, but mostly that stems from wanting to be alert all the time.”

“You don’t put your feet up, relax and have tons to drink?” There was the merest hint of amusement in her voice. Mostly she was serious.

He loved the look on her face when she gave him her full attention. He focused completely on her once he was certain the few couples already eating or waiting to be served weren’t interested in them in the least.

“No, that wouldn’t work for me. I do like to put my feet up though,” he admitted. “I’m going to be very up-front with you.” It was confession time. If he didn’t say it straight up, she’d find out anyway. “I’m not good at this. I never know what to say and I come off stilted and awkward, but I don’t want to be that way with you.”

Her green eyes were hard to stay still under. She seemed to see right through his skull into his mind where chaos reigned—thanks to her.

“I’m not so great at this either,” she declared. “I guess we’re going to have to learn. I’m very competitive and I have a fast learning curve. Very fast. Wait.” She frowned at him. “You weren’t reading a help book on dating, were you?”

“Do they have those in the library?”

Her lashes swept down and then back up. A small smile teased the curve of her mouth, causing his heart to accelerate. He found himself staring. Shit. He was going to lose before he got started because he couldn’t stop staring at her.

She laughed. “I’m not telling you. I’ll read them and turn into a scintillating conversationalist in minutes, leaving you in the dust.”

He instantly learned three things. There were multiple self-help books on dating, she read extremely fast, and she really was competitive. He flashed a small grin, looking at her with hawk-like eyes, giving her the predator look just for a moment. Just to see the shiver that crept down her spine.

“I’ll have to be there first thing in the morning before your shift.”

“You know my shifts?” The smile faded, and she sounded uneasy.

He shrugged. “How was I going to ask you out? I went multiple times without seeing you, so clearly you had a shift and only came into the library during those times. I kept having to trade work with friends, and drive here from the coast, so, I found out when you worked. I came as often as I could, and just waited until we’d established a very tentative woman can charm the socks right off a shy man any day of the week.”

“Is that what we established?”

Her laughter got him every time. He found himself actually relaxing. The waiter hovered, and both guiltily studied the menu. She ordered a pasta dish and he ordered a steak. Fresh-baked bread was put on the table, and he suddenly realized he was very hungry.


About the Author:
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I write every day and have done so since I was old enough to pick up a pen. (I spent a lot of time getting in trouble at school for writing instead of doing the things I was supposed to do.) Once I create my characters, I try very hard to have them react to situations as they really would. Sometimes I have preconceived ideas of what I would like them to do, but they don't mind me, because it would be out of character for them. They take on a life of their own. Sometimes when I throw difficult situations at them in the hopes I'll get a certain reaction and they don't do what I want, I complain bitterly to my husband and he laughs at me. Still, it is important to me to have them be real, not perfect people, so they make mistakes we lesser mortals might make.